Destressing

Sometimes I forget how much I enjoyed living alone. No TV on all the time, music playing in the background, curling up with a book wherever and whenever I like. Napping when I choose. Cleaning in the middle of the night.

It's peaceful and liberating.

Not that I don't love having Ian with me. I also can't imagine life any way other than it has been the past five years. Well, okay, I can, but I can't picture going back and changing anything. It's just nice to have one of these nights/weekends once in awhile to unwind and pick everything up.

Or is this a nightmare?

I need to stop letting my daydreaming get the best of me.

Hot flashes at 26 suck

I feel like a menopausal woman. Bleurgh. This better level off in the next four weeks or so!

To SOC or not to SOC...

That is the question. It would take me about two years.

Something to think about.

Stuck in my head...

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

Patting myself on the back

I totally just replaced my laptop fan and the machine is humming quietly. Go me!

Melancholy

I can feel myself becoming a bitter person, as much as I don't want to be.